我想去中国

我十月的时候离开印度就想回中国工作。但是，我还没找到什么工作，很糟糕！如果你知道我可以在哪儿工作的话，就告诉我吧！多谢。

douches galore

what is with all the douches tonight? so many!!

ved was a douche a bit. melanie was a douche for a second or two. amy and biana were perennial douches (despite their absence) ... and your mom was a douche, too! shit ...

in other 2.30am news

... tonight was drunk, but not as drunk as previous nights.

melanie told me she wants to ascertain my exact tolerance. she certainly did not learn tonight as i am nearly sober! perhaps she will learn tomorrow at the central square pub crawl!! (if you want to join the crawl, call me +1 617 686 4068 ...)

also, on an unrelated note: the shuttle rules, yeah! SO CHEAP, CALL IT!

ps, by "nearly sober" i mean "barely drunk", in case there was any confusion ...

re: song

my friend melissa says:

you need to get with the program SUCH A GOOD SONG! i've had it forever now...
so you can RIP IT!

i guess i do need to get with the program. i guess i'm just being a douche. anyway, why doesn't everyone tell me in the comments all their thoughts about this song, and about me not having it ...

time to get some pageviews!

with this my blog now has seven posts ... okay not a lot, but still -- it's ready for some pageviews. and comments! tell your friends!

great song!

so i was at the senior dvd website to vote for senior superlatives and the background music is awesome! (although, as my friend justina pointed out, a bit sad ... but so beautiful!) some digging revealed the song is Breathe by Telepopmusik! i have to get it! but it's not on itunes and i can't use p2p downloads since i got warned for sharing a copyrighted 30-second porn clip last fall! anyway it is available at mclub.te.net.ua ... but i don't know if that shit's legit ... and if i don't find out i'm not letting them mess with my amex. haha ...

got off the phone with my mom a few minutes ago ...

... she talks forever! i was like, why are we still on the phone? we haven't said anything for the past fifteen minutes! i want to throw my fucking phone at the wall! i love her, but seriously -- what is her problem?

more rocking

the other event that is rocking my world (though less than that coming-out, which was a total surprise) is the fact that i'm graduating in 11 days, on june 10th.

pretty big deal. it's the end of the world as i know it. my whole life has been pretty set up till now. there was a basic template for my activities from preschool through college. now, i can basically do whatever i want. which is really cool. but which is also scary. well, at least lately, i've felt the excitement and optimism a lot more than i have felt the fear and stress ... nice.

speaking of coming out ...

a friend of mine from china just came out to me last night. apparently he wasn't really in the closet before, but he was never out, either. he had never remarked about hot guys or anything. but last night around 4am we were talking on the phone (i was smashed) and he started talking about this guy he's been hanging out with ... i was like, woah. it really rocked my world, much more than any other news i've heard in the past few months ...

he called again today, and my sober self was able to corroborate what my drunken self had understood: he's bi. (okay, maybe he's just saying that for now ... he could really just be gay.)

my world, rocked.

hmmm

so i just ran a goole search for site:blogspot.com gmail .... and found givemegmail ... this guy has been posting a lot for a long time and (as of 19 may, my birthday) ... still didn't have gmail. so i guess i'll just be waiting for it to come out publicly ...

on the other hand, i think actually blogging could be a good idea. after entering my profile i am somehow already feeling some sense of community (odd because i haven't read others' blogs ... but i guess i feel their presence) ...

first post

hmm, i only signed up in hopes of getting a gmail account but maybe i'll actually start blogging now.